Out

I want out. I NEED out.

Maybe…

I think I’m doing this right…

Funky Mood

Been in a funky/foul mood for the past few days/weeks/months. I know some of the stuff that is contributing to it and there is nothing that I can do about it and that just adds to and ups the degree of the funk and foulness. There is no quick escape nor is any easy way out.

I also need to sleep more. I’m sleping better but not enough.

There are some things I need to let go of and no matter what I had hoped for and dreamed of there is just no way that these thing are going to come to fruition so I just need to stop these dreams.

Maybe in two or three years I can go back to only having one job. That will happen when I get some of the other things taken care of. It would be nice if I could just go home after work.

I get tired of dealing with people but would like some company sometimes. I know that sounds weird but at times a companion would be nice,preferrably female, just to talk with,not that I have a lot to talk about but after awhile killing zombies and pigs gets boring and lonely.

Also thinking about changing my name and not telling anyone or changing it to an unpronouncable symbol. That way I wouldn’t exactly be being rude when I didn’t answer when some kept calling the name I have now.

Also on that subject I hate that when I am talking to someone and someone else comes up and keeps saying my name trying to interrupt me. Saying my name seven times is in NOOOOO way going to make me answer you faster. In fact it will make me ignore you even longer.

Sorry for whining but this seemed to be the safest place to do it and I needed to unload.

Fuck It!

I sent out a link to a funny video to a group of friends including my brother. It had to do with Apple products and people’s perception of them. My brother responded and I commented back to him joking about what he said. Someone else responded totally out of left field and started bashing iPods and IPhones basically because they are Apple products.

My comment had nothing to do with either of these products. I responded defending the fact that I have hae an iPhone for a year and a half and have not had a dropped call. Ever.

Another peeson repsonded asking if maybe I didn’t get the point of the link I had posted. I said no I just had a problem with someone parroting what others had said when they had no experience with the device inquestion and were just parroting what they had heard others say.

I was then called non-objective,unreasonable and hypocritical. This all stemmed from sending out something I thought was funny.

I won’t make that mistake again. Ever.

Unca Doz!!!

Having fun Deedlesitting! LOL

Destruction. Carnage.

Extremely weird dream last night. Kinda scary too. In the dream I was over at a friends house for a breathing treatment(WTH?) and I was outside. In the dream her house is over by West Ridge Mall (I’ve never actually been to her house.)

I look up and see these three fighter jets and think nothing of it when all of a sudden two of the jets collided.Then all hell starts breaking loose as cars start getting bombed and flying through the air. I’m OK but the carnage is pretty scary.

After it’s all over I go wandering through the scene of destruction and then go back to her family’s house to watch the news and see if there is any news of why it all happened. The news showed what had happened but didn’t have an explanation.

Still a bit freaked by the dream.

It’s Not You, It’s Me. Really.

Hi it’s me again, I mean who else would it be really.

Bear with me on this one,I promise it will be the last post of it’s kind for any foreseeable future.

My last foray into the possibility of entering the dating world has not worked out and frankly I’m pretty much done with the whole trying to date thing. I blame absolutely no one but myself.

I know I haven’t tried that hard or in fact that many times and that is a lot of the problem. I just don’t have that killer instinct that makes you go after something you really want. There is just something inherently missing in me. I can’t just dive right in and go for it. Instead I waste too much time trying to figure out if I should or shouldn’t and if I do wondering if I will be shunned by the girl of interest. Taking so much time always leads to the place i can’t escape. “The Friend Zone.”(dee-doo dee-doo dee-doo dee-doo) Once in there there is no escape(well at least for me.) I have a great many friends.

Hell  even lab rats don’t push levers after an electric shock or two.

Also I have learned that ” You’re a really (great,sweet,wonderful,etc.) guy.” is chick speak for “You will never see me naked.”

I have my permanent reservation at Table 9 with the other mutants, I guess I always have.

Oh well I guess that is all for now. Thanks for taking the time to read my demented ramblings.

I will leave you with this:

End of the Journey

Well the journey has ended, pretty much where and how I expected it would. It was a road I had never really taken but now I can say that I have been down that way before.

Back to myself now.

It’s been fun.

It’s Out There

Now let’s see where it goes.

Weird

I didn’t spontaneously combust…neither did anyone else.